What's the point of 50%?

If tonight ever makes a difference, then I'd say good night to you right now.
It's like the alcohol that never leaves your life, the stench that you have a love-hate relationship with.
Its like the goodbye you hate to let your lips utter, but you know they'll tell you to take your time.
They told me I was stronger than that. And I told myself I'd never give in to the reason why people jump.
But if I've climbed nine storeys, to start descending down the stairs, I may as well be just like them.

Well, as of now, it is 12am, and I need a miracle to get through this.
As of now, I'm needing you the most and you're not even here.